it's july 22nd

it hasn't really hit me yet. i'm not sure it will until i'm in the airport saying bye for the last time. my stomach hurts though, really bad. the last couple have days have been filled with saying bye to all the people i love and i've discovered that i'm not a fan of saying goodbye. nope. not one bit.
i AM excited. i AM ready....i think. i'm just scared and i know it's Satan trying to get his hold on me. unknowns are looming and instead of looking at it as a threat i should be looking at it knowing that God has room to move.
i depart OKC at 11:48 am, fly to Washington and then on to South Africa. right off the plane we'll make the 4 hour drive to Swaziland.
Swaziland is 7 hours ahead of Oklahoma.

Jesus, calm my racing heart. and be with every single person i love that i'm leaving and keep them safe. and don't let anything TOO neat happen while i'm gone, let it happen when i get home :) be with everyone traveling today and help me to embrace this AMAZING opportunity i've been given. it's been 2 years in the making and it's been only by your grace that i even get to go. i don't want this to slip by, i don't want it to be gone before i have a chance to embrace it for what it is.

when it's all said and done
no one remembers
how far we have run
the only thing that matters
is how we have loved

i don't want to miss
even just a second
more of this

i love you guys. email me at meredithdiffee@gmail.com
see you september 30th

-meredith