five loaves of bread & two fish

got to play with babies today. i gave away a whole bag of suckers. i took pictures of gorgeous kids with beaming smiles and the most beautiful eyes. oh swaziland. you have something to offer that no where else in the world even comes close to.

Psalm 121
I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Jesus does a good job at putting the right words in front of you at the right times. i've listened to more sermons, sat in on more devotions, and heard more people pray from the heart than i have in the past year. and i don't fall asleep. i don't get bored. hearing a swazi pastor speak makes your heart beat fast and your palms sweat. they are intense. and it's amazing. i had to pray for a group of people today. just like 2 years ago. good thing i expected it this time. my voice cracked though and i sounded really weird.
i also am figuring out that even though i'm not some confident RN, it's not all i have to offer. and the smallest things that are given to God turn into huge gifts that can reach anyone. i can give a sucker to a little girl and her face lights up for hours. i have more to offer than i ever imagined. i started out with five loaves and two fish and i can't WAIT to see what that grows into...
still struggling. still figuring myself out. still getting to know a new side of me that i've never even began to meet.
i love you guys. SO MUCH. i've got some pretty amazing friends.

-mer